Absolute Bliss

There was a time.
Where hopes were dying.
A time where I knew if I couldn't be his, I'd be no one's. No one else would truely own me.
There was a time where I told him I would always love him. And I will always hope for his happiness; but I don't want any part of it.
I want you. All of you. Forever.
I want to be a part of your happiness.
Because now is absolute bliss.

Raw Emotion

I'm not in the mood to create poetry tonight.
I'm in the mood to say things exactly how I mean them.
Raw. Which actually might be the best form of poetry.
Last night we had a really eye opening conversation.
You sat there next to me and tried to break down my walls. The walls I automatically built up to protect myself from you.
You have given me everything. Everything you have. Everything you are. You have given me all of you.
And in return I have given most of me, but not all of me.
I'm writing tonight because you are already asleep and I need to tell you this right now.
Because I'm feeling so passionate.
I was telling a best friend about you tonight. One who hasn't met you yet.
By the way I was talking about you I knew it.
I'm in love with you, Mason Herrick. 100% in love. The kind of love that I've only felt with one other person.
But it's different. It's better. I love you in the most innocent, pure form. I love you in the way where I let you eat the last piece of our totinos pizza when I really want it. I love you in the way where I really never post about boys on insta of facebook because I don't want other boys to stop flirting with me, except with you because I will post about you because I don't care whether other boys want me or not.
I don't want anyone else to want me.
I love you.
I will stand by you forever.
Supporting you in your dreams.
Comforting you in your trials.
Standing with you, strengthening you in your weaknesses.
I'm done holding up my walls.
Because even when I come home from my summer adventure, if you're gone, I can know I loved you without regrets. That I gave you my all. Not just part of me.
Even if I have to start from nothing again, I will give you my everything.
Because I'm in love with you.
And I'm done holding that back.
I won't give up.
Baby I'm falling. I hope you catch me when I land.

My Hero

Oh what a lovely night it is to be awaken with thoughts of you all decorated with kisses and the scent of lavender.
My dear, I'm not sure you've come to realize what exactly you have accomplished. To completely obliterate Noah from my very colorful imagination.
My lovely, how gorgeous it is to lay here and never wish for more than you laying here next to me.
I was holding out for a hero. Collapsed in that corner of that bathroom, dripping from the steam of a recent bath, crying. Holding out for my hero. He had to be strong. He had to be sure. And he had to be larger than life. He had to be to rescue me.
I was weary, you see. Of you and your intimidating words. Of your intimidating past.
But when you trusted me enough to share with me that scary side of you, all I saw were those eyes and I couldn't help but feel like those eyes were enough. 
"Your personality is more than I ever could have imagined."
And your words flew through me.
And you were strong.  You were sure. You were larger than life.
You sang les miserables at the top of your lungs and I laughed as I simultaneously fell in love with you.
You, my love, make my weaknesses strong.
You solidify my faith when it has been shaken.
You change my fear into bravery.
You bring me into what I've always needed to be.
A beautiful little fool