Dentist trip.

 

I got to leave school early because I had a dentist appointment.
I was able to watch the avengers.
I got to be put on laughing gas.




They drilled my teeth.
My head hurt.
I got new toothpaste and chap stick.







I don't like the dentist still.

Mommy, why are clouds?

Mommy, why are clouds? Why do we eat? How does medicine work?
Mommy, what is stars? Where do we cry? Why do we count numbers?
Mommy, do boys sing too? How do I get scared? What is fruits?
Mommy, why do I need shoes? How was my dress made? Who are super hero's?
Mommy, how does my coloring book get made? Why is clocks important? Who cleans our trash?
Mommy, why do football boys hit each other? When is next week? How does my hair be yellow?
Mommy, why do you love paints? When do I fall in love? Is daddy coming to dinner?
Mommy, why are colors? Why can't I chew water? Where does the sky end?
Mommy, I love you. Do you love me too?

Believe it.

Because you are who you are for a reason. Believe it.

Black out

Oranges and Boredom

Oranges are funerals. Oranges are little kids squirting juices everywhere. Oranges are the sting of the citrus on open cuts. Oranges are horrible fruits that taste sour and sweet at the same time. Oranges are indecisive.

The only time I give the orange a change, it's out of boredom. Not want. 

Now oranges are boredom. 

Nothing positive come from these things.

Empty Nesters.

Sixers.

  I still make coffee for two.

FOR SALE: Baby shoes, never worn.

Life changed                 These socks are itchy

when I                             but warm.

became brave.

It’s             I am thankful for the other girl.

Friday         It has helped me move on.

and

I’m

feeling                 those old scars

good.                  have built my character.                       

I fear no fate...

Fate is scary.  Fate is no reason. Or choice. He's asking us to forget and leave it to him.
But I fear no fate.
I decided once. That he is not the boss of me. Once, I would ask him to catch me a break. He would take that question and shove it back in my face and say, "I'm in control!"
Then I decided that I feared him. I had no real control of my outcome. I was afraid that he would get mad at me and choose to hate me.
But today I fear no fate.
It was then, that I decided to fight him once again and I said, "Screw you." I then tried to change my fate and decided to fly. Fate took away my flying freedom and said, "Be scared of me!"
I fell into a pit full of tears that never seemed to stop coming. All my walls that took so much effort for me to build up, gone. Now a pile of dust blowing through the air I breathe.
Because I was stuck here I saw that I had two choices.
1) Decide that fate has control and surrender myself to him.
2) Fight him.
Slowly, one step at a time, I climbed out of that pit. And when I reached the top I was a new human. I was strong. I was new. I was me.
Because of this, today I fear no fate.